My soup tastes funny

...Like bad peanuts. You know that taste? The weird tasting peanut in the shell? Almost like burnt peanut. I'm really upset about this - we need to go grocery shopping so we don't have much in the house to eat, and soup was one of my few lunch choices. I tried to suck it up and eat it but seriously almost threw up. I have more cans of soup but now I'm kind of afraid of soup.

I'm at the point in pregnancy where I'm hungry all the time, but don't ask me what I want to eat because nothing sounds good. I'm also not sleeping and I really do believe I'll sleep a lot better once this baby is out.

Basically, today I am full of nothing but complaints, and burnt peanut tastes, lol.

There's not much to update you on. We went out and finished buying up the majority of the baby supplies this weekend. I just need to get some baby socks and a couple pairs of newborn pants - I never have enough pants for my kids. My husband says it's because pants aren't as cute as shirts and stuff, and he's probably right. It's weird being done - I feel like there's no way I can be done, especially with so much stuff I thought I had to do, but I keep wracking my brain for things we don't have, and I can't think of anything. I haven't bought any formula, but I am hoping to breastfeed, and I know if it doesn't work out, I'll get samples in the hospital that will tide us over until someone can run out and get it.

On the one hand, being done has made me more impatient for him to get here. But, on the other hand... I'm still freaking out. One, because I really don't want surgery. I don't want to deal with the recovery and two babies and leaving my son at home while I'm in the hospital. I will deal with it, I knew there was a chance of that happening when I decided for a second baby, but it still doesn't mean I'm in love with the idea.

Then, I'm terrified of juggling two kids, lol. With this baby inside of me right now, he's easy to take care of. I want all the fun stuff - being able to hold him and cuddle him and seeing him with Cayden, but I'm so nervous about the rest of it.

We had a very busy October, so now I'm wondering if November is going to drag on because we don't have a lot planned. My last day of work is the day before Thanksgiving, and besides my cousin's wedding, that's really the only thing I have on our schedule. I just want to spend time with Cayden and getting things ready and all that.

Halloween was OK. We had plans to take Cayden trick or treating twice, but we only went once. He didn't need all that candy anyway, but I did feel bad about not taking him because we were supposed to go with Tyler, his bff. He ended up desperately needing a nap though, so it just didn't work.

Trick or treating around our house went well. We only went out for about a half hour, because again, Cayden doesn't need a bunch of candy. It was also chilly, and it was pretty funny - Cayden took off like a rocket and basically ran the whole two blocks, and then pooped out and started asking to go home.

I'll edit this later and post pictures. Right now I unfortunatly have laundry to do. Yuck.