It's the weather. I know we're lucky, because all we're getting here is rain and a few storms, nothing super bad (I hope you all are safe!) But I am still sick of the rain, sick of being stuck inside, and feeling really cooped up. I keep thinking I want to go out somewhere with the kids, but the only places we have to go are the same inside places we've spent all winter at.
Other than that, we're doing alright. Eli will be five months in a couple days (two days, to be exact) and that blows my mind, because we're so close to half a year, and when did all this time pass, exactly? This time last year I was cramping and thinking I was going to lose him, and now here he is, a smiling ball of chub and love. Time is going by way faster now that I have two. However, Eli still seems small to me. I guess because I've got Cayden around to compare him too, and he's just way smaller than Cayden is, obviously.
People are already asking me about other children. My Mom likes to say that two is plenty (which makes me laugh, coming from a woman who had three) My Mother-in-law likes to tell me we can't be done, and she implies it's because we don't have our girl yet. And that seems like the dumbest reason in the world to have another baby: Just to try for a certain sex. It kind of reminds me of eating chocolates, and taking a bite out of every one until you get the kind you like. Only with babies, you can't just leave them in the box. That may make it sound like I don't want my boys because they're boys, but that's not true at all. I'm just saying, if your ONLY reason to have another child is to cross your fingers and hope for a certain sex... I just couldn't do it.
Still, I'm not sure I'm done. Some days I know I'm done, some days I think I should have been done before I started, ha ha. But other days... My Mom I tell her I'm not done, to get under her skin, because she shouldn't tell me that I am done. It's not her decision to make. My Mother in law, I tell I am done, because again, it's not her business to tell me I need to keep having kids, especially when she herself only had one child. Everyone else, I tell the truth: I don't know. And I figure I don't have to know right now. I mean IF we have another child, it'll be years down the road. It's not like I have to know the answer now. We can figure it out later.
Cayden wants another sibling. He asks for one all the time. It makes me laugh. We were so worried about how he'd handle things, and he was fine. Better than fine. He's an amazing big brother. We've had some hiccups (he's hit Eli, he accidentally kicked him in the head once, a week or two ago, he poked him in the face with a fork, and yesterday he was trying to help me feed Eli and jammed the spoon down his throat.) But Cayden loves to hold Eli, loves to talk to Eli (He'll get up in the morning and say "Good Morning Eli!") He's been super helpful with Eli and loves to tell me "He'll get him" when Eli starts crying. And Eli looks at Cayden and just smiles and laughs. They're amazing together. I love them so much separately, but when I see them interacting with each other, I'm so proud and so full of love that I literally feel like I'm going to explode.
Baby is up. I was going to try to do pictures. I'll have to do it later.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Sleep
Sleep has gotten.... Interesting.
Eli slept the best he's ever slept the other night (barring the night of the shots, where he only woke up once because I woke him up) I thought it might be permanent. It hasn't been. We also have another issue. He sleeps a LOT better in his rock and play (for those of you who don't have any idea what this is, it's like a bouncy seat that is taller and safe for sleeping. If you don't know what a bouncy seat is, google it, ha ha) I believe he sleeps better there because it's inclined. The issue is, is it has a weight limit of either 20 or 26 lbs (I can't remember off the top of my head) I'd rather him get used to his crib before we can't use it anymore. Now, if I thought it was just a "I need to get used to it" issue, I would probably just tough it out. But, with his reflux, I think he needs to sleep sitting more inclined. Also, when he lays in his crib, he tends to get more congested, which the doctor said is common in reflux babies - especially ones that spit up a lot, which he does. So, he lays in his crib, doesn't sleep well in it, and then sleeps even worse when he gets congested.
We did incline the mattress, but we can't incline it to the same degree as his rock and play, and so I just don't think it does much good. Not sure what else to do. I guess we'll rock and play it for now and hope he grows out of his reflux before he grows out of his rock and play.
Cayden and sleep... Ugh. Just ugh. I know Mum asked about nightmares/night terrors. Cayden has both - he's had night terrors since he was a baby. Night terrors differ from nightmares because a child/person will scream and LOOK terrified, but will be REALLY hard to wake up (and actually, you're not supposed to wake up, as usually that will only prolong things) They have no recollection of being scared/know what scares them. From what I've read about them, it has to do with sleep cycles and stuff I think. Nightmares are obviously dreams that scare them. Cayden's had a few of these (and the more nightmares he has, the less he seems to do the whole night terror thing) I don't know. We were supposed to go in for his 2 1/2 check and had to postpone it, but I plan on seriously talking to his doctor about possible sleep issues/what we can do about them.
In other news, my Mom has to go in for a heart cath tomorrow, so I better catch some sleep. But if you guys could keep her in your thoughts/prayers, I'd appreciate it.
Eli slept the best he's ever slept the other night (barring the night of the shots, where he only woke up once because I woke him up) I thought it might be permanent. It hasn't been. We also have another issue. He sleeps a LOT better in his rock and play (for those of you who don't have any idea what this is, it's like a bouncy seat that is taller and safe for sleeping. If you don't know what a bouncy seat is, google it, ha ha) I believe he sleeps better there because it's inclined. The issue is, is it has a weight limit of either 20 or 26 lbs (I can't remember off the top of my head) I'd rather him get used to his crib before we can't use it anymore. Now, if I thought it was just a "I need to get used to it" issue, I would probably just tough it out. But, with his reflux, I think he needs to sleep sitting more inclined. Also, when he lays in his crib, he tends to get more congested, which the doctor said is common in reflux babies - especially ones that spit up a lot, which he does. So, he lays in his crib, doesn't sleep well in it, and then sleeps even worse when he gets congested.
We did incline the mattress, but we can't incline it to the same degree as his rock and play, and so I just don't think it does much good. Not sure what else to do. I guess we'll rock and play it for now and hope he grows out of his reflux before he grows out of his rock and play.
Cayden and sleep... Ugh. Just ugh. I know Mum asked about nightmares/night terrors. Cayden has both - he's had night terrors since he was a baby. Night terrors differ from nightmares because a child/person will scream and LOOK terrified, but will be REALLY hard to wake up (and actually, you're not supposed to wake up, as usually that will only prolong things) They have no recollection of being scared/know what scares them. From what I've read about them, it has to do with sleep cycles and stuff I think. Nightmares are obviously dreams that scare them. Cayden's had a few of these (and the more nightmares he has, the less he seems to do the whole night terror thing) I don't know. We were supposed to go in for his 2 1/2 check and had to postpone it, but I plan on seriously talking to his doctor about possible sleep issues/what we can do about them.
In other news, my Mom has to go in for a heart cath tomorrow, so I better catch some sleep. But if you guys could keep her in your thoughts/prayers, I'd appreciate it.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
I love my son, I love my son, I love my son....
I love my son. I just need him to get away from me right now. I realize that that probably makes me sound like a horrible mother, but if I don't vent, I really might explode. I think everyone can agree that that would make me a worse mother, right?
He's back on a no sleeping kick. I don't know what the hell to do, it's so frustrating. And I know - all kids have sleep regressions at points. But it's not like he sleeps well and then has a few weeks of bad sleep. It's like his good sleeping is his regression, if that makes sense. Where other kids are good sleepers majority of the time with periods of bad sleep, he's a bad sleeper with periods of good sleep. I've done everything - I've been active with him so he's tired, but made sure he's gotten his naps so he's not over-tired. He goes to sleep on his own - no sleep aides. We stopped giving him milk in the middle of the night, so he's not waking to eat. He is two and a half years old and is waking up just as much and sometimes more than Eli (who is also a crappy sleeper, but at 4 months old, it's more normal than a 2.5 year old doing it.)
Lately it's even worse, because he wants to get into our bed. And if I don't give in, he's still up multiple times. It used to be if he slept with someone, he was at least a good sleeper - not waking. Now it's the opposite. He's still up multiple times. The only advantage is that I don't have far to go.
Today though, I'm just on overload. Cayden and Eli both slept super crappy two nights ago - with Eli up literally at least every hour, if not more (he learned how to roll from back to belly. So he'd roll onto his belly and wake himself up. Not a fun night) Last night Cayden wanted in our bed, then spent the whole night whining in his sleep. The baby actually slept decently, so of course he was up bright and early. Then Cayden woke up and has just been the biggest whiner/cry baby in the whole entire universe.
And I know - I know he's 2, and that's what 2 year olds do. I'm not saying it's unexpected, I'm not saying it's abnormal, but after the past couple nights on little sleep, coupled with having him pretty much on top of me whining all last night, it is more than I can handle right now. It's to a point where I'm considering just shutting him in his room. I really think he just needs to go back to sleep, but of course he's not going to do that.
Alright, now that I've vented a little, I better go be attentive to the beast. Wish me luck.
He's back on a no sleeping kick. I don't know what the hell to do, it's so frustrating. And I know - all kids have sleep regressions at points. But it's not like he sleeps well and then has a few weeks of bad sleep. It's like his good sleeping is his regression, if that makes sense. Where other kids are good sleepers majority of the time with periods of bad sleep, he's a bad sleeper with periods of good sleep. I've done everything - I've been active with him so he's tired, but made sure he's gotten his naps so he's not over-tired. He goes to sleep on his own - no sleep aides. We stopped giving him milk in the middle of the night, so he's not waking to eat. He is two and a half years old and is waking up just as much and sometimes more than Eli (who is also a crappy sleeper, but at 4 months old, it's more normal than a 2.5 year old doing it.)
Lately it's even worse, because he wants to get into our bed. And if I don't give in, he's still up multiple times. It used to be if he slept with someone, he was at least a good sleeper - not waking. Now it's the opposite. He's still up multiple times. The only advantage is that I don't have far to go.
Today though, I'm just on overload. Cayden and Eli both slept super crappy two nights ago - with Eli up literally at least every hour, if not more (he learned how to roll from back to belly. So he'd roll onto his belly and wake himself up. Not a fun night) Last night Cayden wanted in our bed, then spent the whole night whining in his sleep. The baby actually slept decently, so of course he was up bright and early. Then Cayden woke up and has just been the biggest whiner/cry baby in the whole entire universe.
And I know - I know he's 2, and that's what 2 year olds do. I'm not saying it's unexpected, I'm not saying it's abnormal, but after the past couple nights on little sleep, coupled with having him pretty much on top of me whining all last night, it is more than I can handle right now. It's to a point where I'm considering just shutting him in his room. I really think he just needs to go back to sleep, but of course he's not going to do that.
Alright, now that I've vented a little, I better go be attentive to the beast. Wish me luck.
Monday, April 11, 2011
I miss writing. Every time I think time is going to clear up for me to start again, something pops up. It's starting to get a little bit old. I miss hearing from you guys, I miss seeing where the other blog is going to go. I keep telling myself eventually things are going to die down, but then something else pops back up. I'm just not so sure anymore.
Cayden is sick. Yet again. For the billionth time in a row. I think it might possibly be yet another ear infection. It's so frustrating because he's not a sickly kid. He was never sick before, and ever since he got croup, we just have had one thing right after another - mainly ear infections that keep switching ears, then his friend got whooping cough and because the boys were exposed to it, they both were on preventative antibiotics for it, which is fine, but it caused them both to have stomach cramps. Then he and I both got some weird stomach bug, and now we're back to... I dunno. Thursday night he woke up with a fever and was crying and clingy. Gave him motrin, fever broke, we let him sleep in our bed. The motrin wore off, the fever came back, he was cranky, we gave him more. Fever goes away, and he's his normal, hyper-active self. But, 6 hours later, the motrin is gone, and he has a fever, and all he wants to do is lay on me... He has no other symptoms but a fever (and when he has a fever, he's cranky.) He's not saying anything hurts, he's not throwing up. Just the fever.
As it stands now, I'm writing this at 4:30 am when I should be sleeping because Cayden's been up a bajillion times, and Eli's been up a bunch and I want to make sure they're both REALLY down before I fall asleep. Which I think they are.
Again, I can't apologize enough for being MIA. I know especially to readers from the other blog it must feel like I just blew it off and I'm never coming back. Trust me, I miss the blog. I have plans on what to write. I just need to find the time to sit down and write it.
Cayden is sick. Yet again. For the billionth time in a row. I think it might possibly be yet another ear infection. It's so frustrating because he's not a sickly kid. He was never sick before, and ever since he got croup, we just have had one thing right after another - mainly ear infections that keep switching ears, then his friend got whooping cough and because the boys were exposed to it, they both were on preventative antibiotics for it, which is fine, but it caused them both to have stomach cramps. Then he and I both got some weird stomach bug, and now we're back to... I dunno. Thursday night he woke up with a fever and was crying and clingy. Gave him motrin, fever broke, we let him sleep in our bed. The motrin wore off, the fever came back, he was cranky, we gave him more. Fever goes away, and he's his normal, hyper-active self. But, 6 hours later, the motrin is gone, and he has a fever, and all he wants to do is lay on me... He has no other symptoms but a fever (and when he has a fever, he's cranky.) He's not saying anything hurts, he's not throwing up. Just the fever.
As it stands now, I'm writing this at 4:30 am when I should be sleeping because Cayden's been up a bajillion times, and Eli's been up a bunch and I want to make sure they're both REALLY down before I fall asleep. Which I think they are.
Again, I can't apologize enough for being MIA. I know especially to readers from the other blog it must feel like I just blew it off and I'm never coming back. Trust me, I miss the blog. I have plans on what to write. I just need to find the time to sit down and write it.
Monday, April 4, 2011
We're still sick, I guess we're germy mofo's
I've had a post in the making for awhile now. I keep adding to it a little at a time, and then I'll think "I'll post pictures as soon as the kids go to sleep" and then something else comes up, and then someone gets sick. Yes, again.
We had a month of ear infections, and then it was followed by Eli having some weird cold thing that wasn't too bad during the day, but made him sleep super crappy - and the doctors thought it was due to his reflux. We'll have a few days where people will be good, but I'll be so dead set on then getting out of the house/getting things done around the house. And before I know it, someone is sick again. Now we have some weird stomach bug.
I keep waiting for spring to arrive - because it's supposed to be here - thinking that once it warms up, we'll be good. Buuuuut it has yet to come. Which is bullshit, huh?
For anyone who cares, I'll try to give some cliff notes of what's been going on:
Eli is now 4 months old. Crazy, huh? Crazier yet, Cayden is officially 2 1/2 years old. My baby is now closer to 3 than he is to 2. Eli is sitting up on his own, and laughing and smiling like crazy. He's still a vomit factory, but at the very least it doesn't seem to bother him (just me. Because he always seems to have particularly big vomits out in public) Cayden is talking like crazy and says the most hilarious things (Today he handed me a diaper and told me to poop in it!) We're still potty training. It was going really well, we were even going out in public without diapers! But then he started to regress a little, and then he pooped in a play place, and now with the stomach bug, it's much safer to have a diaper on. We're hoping to "re-jump" things after this illness is over.
Things are flying by. I can't believe I'm 25 with 2 kids. I can't believe how big my kids are. I can't believe that I can look at Cayden and then look at Eli, and I can't remember when Cayden was that small. I do remember though that things didn't go by this quickly with Cayden (probably because I only had one and wasn't so busy.)
Alright, well Eli is having another rough night, annnnd is currently awake, so I'm going to try to get him back to sleep. How are you guys doing? Is it dumb to say I've missed you?
We had a month of ear infections, and then it was followed by Eli having some weird cold thing that wasn't too bad during the day, but made him sleep super crappy - and the doctors thought it was due to his reflux. We'll have a few days where people will be good, but I'll be so dead set on then getting out of the house/getting things done around the house. And before I know it, someone is sick again. Now we have some weird stomach bug.
I keep waiting for spring to arrive - because it's supposed to be here - thinking that once it warms up, we'll be good. Buuuuut it has yet to come. Which is bullshit, huh?
For anyone who cares, I'll try to give some cliff notes of what's been going on:
Eli is now 4 months old. Crazy, huh? Crazier yet, Cayden is officially 2 1/2 years old. My baby is now closer to 3 than he is to 2. Eli is sitting up on his own, and laughing and smiling like crazy. He's still a vomit factory, but at the very least it doesn't seem to bother him (just me. Because he always seems to have particularly big vomits out in public) Cayden is talking like crazy and says the most hilarious things (Today he handed me a diaper and told me to poop in it!) We're still potty training. It was going really well, we were even going out in public without diapers! But then he started to regress a little, and then he pooped in a play place, and now with the stomach bug, it's much safer to have a diaper on. We're hoping to "re-jump" things after this illness is over.
Things are flying by. I can't believe I'm 25 with 2 kids. I can't believe how big my kids are. I can't believe that I can look at Cayden and then look at Eli, and I can't remember when Cayden was that small. I do remember though that things didn't go by this quickly with Cayden (probably because I only had one and wasn't so busy.)
Alright, well Eli is having another rough night, annnnd is currently awake, so I'm going to try to get him back to sleep. How are you guys doing? Is it dumb to say I've missed you?
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