Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Sounds like life to me

First, I just want to thank everyone for understanding my little rant the other day. I know when people talk about c-sections on Babycenter, mom's tend to get SUPER defensive. There ARE valid reasons for c-sections. I'm not saying they should be banned all together. But I do think that if everything looks normal, your body should be given a shot. Vaginal birth is the safest thing for Mom and baby - IF everything looks normal - there are ALWAYS instances where things pop up and change the game. But I think people are jumping to c-sections to avoid birthing problems, and don't realize a c-section can bring on a whole new set of problems. And the fact of the matter is, yes, things CAN go wrong in a vaginal birth - even if all your pregnancy signs point to "normal". But that's life. Things can happen every day, but you're not sitting in your house to avoid them, are you?

So to sum it up, I just think my body should be given a shot to do what it does. If they come up with a valid reason for needing the c-section, I'll do it. If baby has issues in labor, I'll go right in for a section. But I would like a shot at it.

Moving on to other things...

This next month is going to be hella busy, and that's insane, because September already seemed to fly by, and being so busy in October is going to make IT fly by, and then we're on to November and I'll pretty much be on baby countdown. I'm being so lazy with this child - nothing is done. I really need to wash clothes and set up the bassinet, but first I need to unpack everything else to make room for the bassinet... I dunno, it just went by too fast. I'm 29 weeks, and it's like... When the hell did that happen exactly? However, with my son it seemed once I hit 30 weeks time stood still, and I'm actually kind of hoping that happens this time around!

Anyway, this weekend we have Oktoberfest, and then Cayden's one year pictures on Sunday. My baby turns two on tuesday! Which kills me. I'll be seeing the in-laws, ugh, and would normally say look forward to stories, but I dunno if there will be any. My family will also be there, and my MIL seems to behave herself when they're around, so we shall see.

I talked Jeremy into taking Cayden's birthday off, and we're taking him to COSI to see the Clifford exhibit they have there. Then we're going out to dinner at Quaker Steak and Lube which I think Cayden will like because it's kind of Cars themed. We bought his birthday cake for his actual birthday, and it's Cars themed. Wednesday Cayden goes to the doctor, Friday I go to the doctor, Saturday we'll be preparing for Cayden's birthday party which is on Sunday. Then the following weekend we have our friend's son's one year birthday, and then later the same friend is having a grad party. Sunday is Colo's classic car show at the zoo, we'll be taking Cayden. I'll have a doctors appointment sometime that next week, as well as probably an ultrasound - ugh. The 16th and 17th is our ONLY open weekend, and we're looking at doing the pumpkin patch then, then the following week is the pumpkin show, then we have another birthday party Saturday, and that Sunday is my baby shower! Then the next weekend we'll be doing a Halloween thing called Boo at the Zoo. Then we're on to November! And the only thing I have in November is my MIL's birthday, the wildlights members preview for their Christmas lights, and my cousin's wedding. I really don't think I'll be scheduling anything else - I'll take that month off to focus on baby, lol.

I wish we weren't so jammed packed in October, but I just want to do as much stuff as possible with Cayden, because we won't be going out much once the new baby comes, especially if I need a c-section. I already feel badly, because as of lately we've been at home, with mommy lazing on the couch until Daddy gets home. 2 reasons for this: I'm so freaking tired lately, it's insane. The second reason, we're down to one car - which I'll get too later in this post.

I don't think the baby has dropped, but I do think that he's had to have turned or something. I wasn't really feeling very pregnant and then last night BOOM! I'm having issues turning over in bed. I feel like I need a forklift to move me. I'm not sleeping well, I feel like it takes extra effort to move, and I think all that is contributing to my exhaustion. Plus, we've been non stop these past couple weeks, and will continue to be. So.

Now. Down to one car thing: Our car got repo'd. Yup. Some of you might have seen that coming, with all our money issues. I, however, was blindsided by it, and I'm pretty pissed off.

We talked to our car company. We told them our issue. We asked them if it would be OK if we paid half payments for awhile. They agreed.

Cool. I realize this was really nice of them, and they didn't have to agree. They're a business, not our friends, and they need to make money too - I get that. But they did agree, and it was honestly the one silver lining in all this other shit that's been going on.

So we've been making half payments. We go back up to the house on Sunday, even though we completely moved on Saturday, to meet our old neighbor for a trip to the zoo. Had we not gone up? They wouldn't have repo'd us, because they wouldn't have been able to find us. But, that's a moot point. Anyway, we ride in her car to the zoo, because it's bigger than ours and will fit all of us, and that way we don't have to all pay for parking (originally parking would be free under our zoo memberships, but her husband forgot to give her her membership card, and we lost ours and were going to get a replacement card that day.)

We come back from the zoo, and I'm like "Who's the asshole blocking our car in?"

Yup. Repo man. Here's why I'm mad - if half payments stopped being good enough, why didn't they say something to my husband when he called to make a payment a week ago? They didn't say anything to him. And the kicker was, we were going to make a double regular payment this week - since we moved out and now have no bills to really speak of - Our first priority was getting the car payment caught up, and then we were going to start saving to move out.

Well, they want 900 dollars to get the car back. I don't have 900 dollars. So I guess they can keep the car.

I mean again, I hope it doesn't sound like I'm throwing a fit because they took the car - I get it, I shouldn't get something for nothing. I'm just a little agitated that they told us one agreement was OK, and then didn't tell us when it stopped being OK.

I guess it's a blessing in disguise though. It sucks being down to one car, but we really have like, zero bills now - besides our cell phone bill and groceries and that kind of stuff.

The other beef is that my medicaid was FINALLY approved - which is kind of hilarious because we tried to submit the paperwork multiple times, each time being told they never got it. Jeremy was going to actually take it down there to drop it off after the move was over, but before he could do that he got a call that they approved it. Too bad now that we have to resubmit some stuff since we moved - and we can't get an answer on which office we need to go too - Our paperwork is at the office up by our old house, but we don't know since we'll be living down here if we need to go to this office down here. Basically, I feel like by the time my medicaid goes through, I will have already had this baby and won't need it. And it's just so frustrating.

We're going to have to file for bankruptcy. I don't think there's another option.

So that's life in a nutshell right now. I'm actually kind of glad that we've seemed to hit bottom, because now there's no place to go but up, right? Unless of course, the bottom falls out, lol.

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